*40/365*

Arriving at casa de Ruth and Richard Cunningham for Student council weekend1 and being immediatlely bowled over by their incredible ministry of hospitality and home life.

*39/365*

My journey home from kickboxing...

1)The darkened silhouttes of the trees against the pink blue dusky sky.

2)Driving past a sign with 'LACEY GREEN 1 mile'. Lacey Green..hmmm...ah the blogging communiy... when something makes you think of someone youve never met!

3)Singing 'Indescribable' at the top of my lungs cos noone else but God could hear...
"You see the depths of my heart and you love me the same." Holding onto that right now.

cool.

*38/365*

Receiving a letter from my good friend and soon to be housemate Erica. It had green polka dots that shed spent ages putting on with felt tip pen. God knows what we need.

*37/365*

*35/365*

Amidst exhaustion and confusion its always cool to know that you have an evening where you can indulge that and lie on the sofa and have comfort food. Even if it means missing training...

*34/365*

1.Meeting my new little baby cousin Samuel (that tiny little bundle in my arms) and hanging out with his brothers and sister

2. Catching up with a guy who used to be one of me best friends and i havent seen for 4 years.

3. Sharing some of Romans 6 with the youth group and being so encouraged as we talked about what it means to have had our old nature crucified with Christ.

A faboulous sunday it was.

*33/365*

How incredibly alike the teachings of the Eastern martial arts are to that which Jesus taught (as an image). And yet how often I fail to understand the all-encompassing nature of faith and life lived by grace.

*32/365*

"AS FOR ME IT IS GOOD TO BE WITH MY GOD." (Psalm 73)

It is. And today, it was.

*31/365*

After today's kickboxing session which was at a different club and was a karate version I went for a drink with my friend-forever-friend from church, Rebecca. Theres a group of us all bought up in the same church and been there all our lives except for uni etc. We know each other inside out. We are family.

Spending time with her is being able to look at who I am and who Ive become since the last time we hung out. And it gives me the perspective to be honest and engage with stuff I either havent been able to or havent wanted to. Always painful, but always necessary. And therefore, always cool.

*30/365*

So today is the first day I've struggled to find something to be thankful about. not becuase there arent lots of taken-for-granted things - there are, but I like to see the unusual. But today I've felt low in spirits and confused by a few things...which ill prob blog about on the other channel (!) when i find the right words to expres adequately and without ranting! Anyhoo...

TODAY I am grateful that admidst my confusion God's promises still stand. That Philippians says that "He who started a good work in me will carry it onto completion." That's encouraged my soul and bought healing to anxious places.

*29/365*

Yo Lee!

How you doing? Has everything calmed down a bit now that the degree shows have happened? Hows life in Brockley/new cross?

I'm doing ok, missing london a bit but its been good to get stuck into work, sleep(loads of sleep!) and keep my head down for a bit to process stuff... :(

So I went to 'kickboxing' today...haha...It was with the Mcleod Acadamy of Martial Arts...turns out its a 'Jun Fan' kickboxing so it was more about the power in a 'roundhouse' kick than technique. It was alot of fun and there was alot of grappling and choking aswell, weeving and bobbing and stuff...it will be really good for my fitness and power (focus on moving the hips!) but erm, think you may have to correct my technique!! :)

I'm trying out another class on thursday thats run by a guy built like a house who runs the martial arts store in aylesbury...cant remember his name!

Im gonna be heading back into london the 2nd/3rd weekends in july...will you have headed back this way by then or still be training?

I hope things are good, and you're keeping your head above water?

Take care,
Love Becci.

*28/365*

Wisdom from proverbs 17

9. Whoever covers an offense seeks love,
but he who repeats a matter separates close friends.

14. The beginning of strife is like letting out water,
so quit before the quarrel breaks out

27. Whoever restrains his words has knowledge,
and he who has a cool spirit is a man of understanding

*27/365*

At work today I went for a walk with one of the girls i support. As we were walking down a country lane in front of us was a girl of about 8 with her father. They were walking the dogs, bouncing along cheerfully and eating apples. She had no shoes on and seemed so content to be with her dad and dog on a lazy sunday afternoon. Whilst the thought of having a family right now fills me with horror and likens me to a bird in a cage, there was something so cool about that little scene that I know one day, I will be wanting that.

*26/365*

Today I slept until 1.30pm. I have never done that before. I think I must be exhausted...so nice to wake up slowly.

*25/365*

Today I met a guy in the martial arts shop in aylesbury. And he is built like a HOUSE. More to the point he's going to train me this summer in my kickboxing so that i dont ferment into a huge...er...jellified thing...er yeah. Bring it on!

*24/365*

This morning, after whats been a pretty traumatic couple of days, i woke up to find a huge rainbow on my ceiling. All the colours of the rainbow cast up there by the sun hitting a cd id happened to leave out. The timing could not be more perfect. I am reminded of the promises of God; of his love, to never leave or forsake me and that he is coming again and all pain will cease. And I am comforted and encouraged.

*23/365*

Today i ate a homemade, 'ready steady cook' esque thai green curry with ally g and simeon p. it was good to chat and have a laugh with some pals.

i dont know what to do with the rest of the day now though. that should be a cool thing though, right?!

*22/365*

I sat in this gorgeous park today and read 2 Peter. The park is just down the road from me and was a favourite haunt last year.

As a sat i remembered going there at 6am with a pal to see the sunrise after being up all night chatting. it never rose, it just kind of got lighter. another time, the same friend picked me up and dumped me one of the bins.

A few of us from CU spent the night watching the generl elections then climbed over the fences early in the morning (almost impalling ourselves) just becuase we could.

I spent many many hours in the sunshine revising for exams that really didnt need as much work as i put in.

I forced myself to run round that park in an effort to get fit. I appreciated myself for the outstanding idea of martial arts this year!

Remembering good times was cool.

*21/365*

Making a decision I've been battling over for a while. A difficult decision but knowing its the right one and feeling peace about it. A weird type of cool.

*20/365*

Sitting in the sunshine with church friends for a picnic and figuring out a start point for my dissertation. Being excited about things.

*19/365*

The Daily Mail took my photo today, I wont do that again. you live and learn. Milly came over for the football and we drank pimms and lemonade then went to grennwich and spent the whole day in the sunshine, mooching around, watched the sun set and then went to the cinema. A great day with a great friend.

*18/365*

Today at kickboxing we learnt that how to throw each other and make each other crash to the floor. Coool.

*17/365*

Today I had a phone call from the Daily Mail wishing to interview me for an article theyre doing on 'Pure' the UCCF sex and relationships course. Pod had passed my number onto them and as a Christian, they wanted to find out all about my decision not to have sex until Im married. On saturday they're taking my photo.

*16/365*

Driving to work at 6.30am, at the time when the sun is low and hazy, filtering through the trees causing faint, pollen mist to seemingly gather over the fields. All that is heard is the purr of my engine and early birdsong. magic.

*15/365*

Back home in Aylesbury, cooking up a trojan of a BBQ for my family and friends. Rainbow trout, prawn kebabs, corn on the cob, beef tomatoes, chicken, beef cburgers and salad. In the sunshine.

*14/365*

Pod and I have been together, working at this weird but cool thing called 'relationship' for 5 months today.

ok, housekeeping...:)
There's now 12 of us keeping oursleves happy, delighting in the little things and get exciting about the cool things in life. Thats fab and makes me very happy indeed.

HOWEVER, i feel like Ive created somethig that i would really love to know where its heading...SO if you know of people whove joined up, please please let me know.

Im in process of thinking how we can develop this project further.

*13/365*

DAY3: UCCF:INTERFACEART

Pondering back on a weekend spent with 80 creatives-fine artists, media makers, poets, musuicans, desigeners, actors, sharing ideas and learning what it means to live christianly within the arts, looking at visual work and hearing awesome music and poetyr

Thinking this may have been one of those life-changing weekends, where I become much surer of who I am in Christ, what it means to be fully human and my abilities as a creative.

*12/365*

Day2: UCCF:INTERFACEART

Ellis Potter: "God made us humans before he made us Christians....what is spiritual is to live every area of your life fully. To cook, to garden, to shop, are all spiritual activities...Coordinate all of life together in a thankful and creative way. TO BE SPIRITUAL IS TO BE TOTALLY REAL."

*11/365*

Day1 of UCCF:INTERFACEART

Showing my photography for the first time and being told it's 'strong' by the principal of Leith school of Art, Edinburgh.

*10/365*

Mozart. Utter genius.