yeah, that was cool

yeah, that was cool.

2007-05-28T12:30:00.000+01:00

'What does it mean to be human?' has been rattling through my head this year. That and, 'What does it mean to be spiritual?' In some small sense this blog, this 365 project has been a exploration, a representation of those ideas.

Looking every day for something that is cool, something to be thankful for has revealed the spiritual, the earthy human-ness of the mundane through to the exciting. From a good meal, to a prophetic word, from time spent with friends to whooping ass at taekwondo, from finishing a degree to being reminded of God's faithfulness. All these things, if not sin, are spiritual activities and a year's snapshot of humanness.

Rarely has there only been one cool thing each day and even in the sad times there's always been something that I can see my blessedness in. Indeed I am truly blessed.

And this is the end...there are few who have managed it there: Kath and Ed are there; Cat, Becca, Nicola, Pippa, Steffy B and Kate are following close behind. That makes 9 of us in it together; half of whom I have never met. Yeah, that WAS cool.

This isn't really the end. The question is, what's the next exciting iniative in the investigation of what it means to be human, to be thankful and live as 'becci-'like' a life as God has intended?

365/365

2007-05-24T17:16:00.000+01:00

Long chat with Brazza about Student Council over south bank luncheon. Good vision casting times.

Looking to the future. This being the end of the 365...

364/365

2007-05-23T17:14:00.000+01:00

A day at work being varied
Pod misisng his train so staying in London
Loz's final music performance making me want to cry. The end of an era and all that's changed captured in her voice.

363/365

2007-05-22T17:13:00.000+01:00

Time spent with my parents listening to classical music, dozing and chatting.

It all coming round again

362/365

2007-05-21T17:12:00.000+01:00

Being back in Drayton Parslow at work supporting autistic adults. It being good to be back.

361/365

2007-05-20T17:11:00.000+01:00

Knowing the joy of the Father's lavish love

360/365

2007-05-19T19:47:00.000+01:00

Housegroup weekend away. Lazy morning, beautiful walk in beautiful peak district.
Lots and lots of amazing food.
Sleep afternoon with FA cup, games and chocolate brownies.
Praying for the world and being moved not bored.
Drinks in the pub.

359/365

2007-05-18T19:43:00.000+01:00

The irony of the first sunny day together and we're stuck in the car in traffic jams and getting lost for...hmmm...8 hours...

Seeing the life application of Ecclesiastes. Meaningless. And looking forward to the redemption of the earth when there will no longer be traffic jams.

Arriving in the peak district to a beautiful cottage, Pods housegroup, homemade pizza and wine.

358/365

2007-05-17T19:40:00.000+01:00

Day 4 of Pod Holiday:
- Reading Ecclesiastes 2, chatting and praying it through.
- Dulwich. Dulwich. Dulwich.
-- finding THE PERFECT dress for the ball, sitting for hours in tht pub eating
seafood platter, drinking, smoking.
- Night in BarStory looking at a rip off version of my work in the gallery and drinking with Steffy B et al.

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2007-05-16T19:39:00.000+01:00

Day three:
- Reading Ecclesiastes together. trying to get our brains round how we can hold in tension the meangingless of stuff and how Christ gives everything meaning.
- Nottinghill fun -- the museum of branding. coffee shops. sandwiches
- St. Pauls
- Tom and Caroline...the news of their engagement, wagamamas and good chat.

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2007-05-15T19:37:00.000+01:00

Day two:
- Sushi celebrations
- South bank wanderings
- Being filmed and given lots of free drinks and an afternoons entertainment!
- Games, wine, smokes and giggles all evening

355/365

2007-05-14T19:36:00.000+01:00

Day one of London holiday with Pod:
- covent garden. dresses and shoes
- coffee and chats
- Cinema

354/365

2007-05-13T19:35:00.000+01:00

Many tears at church. Being confronted and loved utterly by God. Words for me.

353/365

2007-05-12T19:34:00.000+01:00

Despite the frustration of a friend who is deliberately disobeying God, being able to still hang out and love her by making her look down the barrell of the gun

352/365

2007-05-11T19:33:00.000+01:00

More sushi with Saz
Dinner and Shisha smokes with the girls

351/365

2007-05-10T19:32:00.000+01:00

Chatting through God and stuff with CU peeps and Rob Frost's son.

350/365

2007-05-09T19:31:00.000+01:00

sleeping in

349/365

2007-05-08T17:11:00.000+01:00

Pod's patience.

348/365

2007-05-07T17:10:00.000+01:00

Mum's 50th birthday. Celebrating with friends and family at my sister and bro-in-law's house. lots of nice food and chat.

347/365

2007-05-06T17:10:00.000+01:00

Being home.

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2007-05-06T17:09:00.000+01:00

It being ok that today I didnt feel well. I have no work to do!

making a journal.

Listening online to Bish on Ecclesiastes

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2007-05-04T17:07:00.000+01:00

Using the tickets I won to the Gilbert and George exhibition at the Tate Modern with Saz. Walking downstairs and seeing Gilbert and George signing autographs. Bizarre.

Sushi with Saz and chatting life.

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2007-05-03T11:57:00.000+01:00

Handing in all my final work. No longer a student. Spending hours and hours with course and CU friends celebrating. Bizarre but brilliant.

The beautiful cake Saz made for me with a London Underground sign iced on it (the topic of my diss)

Being thankful to God for his faithfulness and to Pod fo his patience and unbelievable thoughtfulness and care this year.

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2007-05-02T11:56:00.000+01:00

Printing the disserttion, binding the dissertation. The dissertation being done and dusted. Praising God for getting me through.

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2007-05-01T11:54:00.000+01:00

Recovering the 3 hours dissertation work that the Mac had lost...taking 2 hours to find it, but God is good; providing a very helpful computer helpdesk in the library and the miracle of a reocvered file. phew

341/365

2007-04-30T13:00:00.000+01:00

Sitting in the sunshine with laptop. Impending excitement of the end.

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2007-04-29T12:59:00.000+01:00

"Accidently" missing my train home.
Talking of hidden things.

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2007-04-28T12:58:00.000+01:00

A long long long sleep

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2007-04-27T12:57:00.000+01:00

Walk in a sunny park with pod catching up and then a dinner cooked for me and cleaned up afterwards. what a lovely boy!

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2007-04-26T23:13:00.000+01:00

Being encouaraged that CU today was on 'what does it mean to be a CU' and discussing stuff in light of this.

Drinks and laughter in the pub as well as discussion on penal substitution and all things 'new word alive'.

336/365

2007-04-25T23:11:00.000+01:00

Bumping into my dissertatio tutor on the street after 3 days of panicing about not hearing from him in weeks. Perfect God-esque timing of him coming out the train st. as i walked by. A miracle. Oh and my dissertation draft actually being better than i thought

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2007-04-24T23:10:00.000+01:00

Breaking wood at taekwondo. Managing to do it 3 times with different kicks, and once with a punch. Failing with a knife hand strike...but thats not the point!

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2007-04-23T23:08:00.000+01:00

All the days are blurring into one long mass of essay writing. Today I am mostly thankful that I am getting through it.

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2007-04-22T22:27:00.000+01:00

Playing stick in the mud with the cunnigham kids, student council and ruth.

more chat on CU effectiveness. laughs and goodbyes.

Realising that being daunted about being chair is a very good thing. That being out of my comfort zone means God can actually do something and get some glory instead of becci brown.always good.

332/365

2007-04-21T22:26:00.000+01:00

Being voted chair of student counil for 2007-08. What a priviledge.

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2007-04-20T22:23:00.000+01:00

Getting off the train at Kingham station, breathing in and not smelling anythign except a deep freshness that worked its way through my entire body.

The anticipation of another wonderful student council weekend at the Cunnighams.

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2007-04-19T10:36:00.000+01:00

A little gift from Saz from new York. Thoughful friends are such a blessing.

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2007-04-18T10:34:00.000+01:00

Wonderful dinner in Luton with Pod. There are good times to be found in the concrete city.

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2007-04-17T23:01:00.001+01:00

Losing my breath over God's grace

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2007-04-16T23:00:00.000+01:00

Playing cards around smoldering BBQ embers with housemates.

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2007-04-15T12:52:00.001+01:00

Church. Picnic in the sunshine with church people. Being able to serve and it being fun.

Cafe Sol staying til midnight with Steffy B and drinking mucho mohito and 'working it' to earn complimentary chocolate fudge cake and extra rum. The joy of sharing life and a job well done on the freebies. Bo.

325/365

2007-04-14T12:51:00.000+01:00

My cousin Richard coming to see me for the evening. Like being wrapped up in a warm blanket.

324/365

2007-04-13T12:51:00.000+01:00

Finishing ANOTHER essay.

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2007-04-12T12:50:00.000+01:00

Postcard from New York from Saz. Being thought about.

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2007-04-11T12:49:00.000+01:00

My heart still skipping a beat when I arrive back in London

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2007-04-10T12:48:00.000+01:00

Pod being incredibly patient and understanding

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2007-04-09T20:23:00.000+01:00

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2007-04-08T20:21:00.000+01:00

Christ is risen. death has been conquered. he shall reign forever. woop.

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2007-04-07T20:20:00.000+01:00

Having 3 inches chopped off my hair.

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2007-04-06T20:19:00.000+01:00

Home.

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2007-04-05T20:19:00.000+01:00

Skipping taekwondo to eat icecream and watch 24 with steffy b.

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2007-04-04T20:16:00.000+01:00

apparently my dissertation has been hard not because im thick, as i thought, but becuase its 'progressive'.

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2007-04-03T20:15:00.000+01:00

Being flipped in the air whilst fighting. the landing on my knees coupled with the agony of doing so was not so cool however

313/365

2007-04-02T10:13:00.000+01:00

drinks in the sun with saz

planning the exhibition

chats and wine with steffy b

312/365

2007-04-01T10:11:00.000+01:00

Being challenged to take up my cross

Actualy finding something to wear to the millions of weddings this year

peanut butter on bread at steffy b's (here being back from travels)

311/365

2007-03-31T10:11:00.000+01:00

A good ol fashioned tea party. smoked salmon sandwiches, scones and all.

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2007-03-30T10:10:00.000+01:00

7000 words written, 4000 essay redraft. done. pjs and bed.

309/365

2007-03-29T10:09:00.000+01:00

Getting the freelance research assistant job. woo.

308/365

2007-03-28T10:08:00.000+01:00

An uber understanding Pod.

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2007-03-27T10:07:00.000+01:00

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2007-03-26T10:07:00.000+01:00

Getting a pile of work done due to using steffy b's flat. rock on.

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2007-03-25T10:06:00.000+01:00

A fab hugh preach.

304/365

2007-03-24T10:05:00.000Z

A *surprise* pod visit.

finding the final narnia book I have been missing from my collection.

303/365

2007-03-23T09:41:00.000Z

Steffy B giving me the keys to her flat while shes on her hols. What a pal.

Giggles with steffy b, witsy and wine.

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2007-03-22T09:40:00.000Z

Being well enough to do my taekwondo grading. concentrating even though everyone was watching.

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2007-03-21T09:39:00.000Z

Sick pack no.2 in the post from Pod - comprising of a lovely card, fudge, chocolate and lemsip. Having a thoughtful sweet boyfriend, who has displayed that tirelessly to me more every day.

300/365

2007-03-20T12:13:00.000Z

Final EVER lecture and seminar!

Drinks with a bunch of course mates and a long discussion about God and faith with all of them. This, an answer to prayer.

299/365

2007-03-19T12:13:00.000Z

hours and hours of online games with steffy b. bad girls.

*298/365

2007-03-18T12:11:00.000Z

Feeling more relaxed and less on the verge of a breakdown.

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2007-03-17T12:10:00.000Z

A day for nothing.
Sitting in the sunshine with erica and anna eating cheese toasties, chatting and reading. marvellous.

296/365

2007-03-16T12:09:00.000Z

8.30-10.30am training with Lee.
144 situps
144 pressups
144 squats
1 hour of kicking and punching

gallerys and sunshine. all by myself.

295/365

2007-03-15T20:10:00.000Z

Sitting for 6 hours in the sunshine in my front garden. getting a tan. Saz and Kate joining me; surrounding ourselves with drinks, cake, music, work and chatter

Short films at Barstory with Steffy B. Skipping taekwondo for the pleasure. Walking home, giggling, investigating the mystery of the strange house that stands between our two houses. What IS that house?

294/365

2007-03-14T20:10:00.000Z

Writing the first half of the first chapter of my dissertation. finally. in the sun.

294/365

2007-03-13T20:09:00.000Z

Another looonnng luncheon in the sunshine with delightful saz.

293/365

2007-03-12T20:07:00.000Z

Expressing it as it is to my dissertation tutor. Reaching a point of almost clarity.

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2007-03-11T20:06:00.000Z

Church, amazing as always. communion lunch afterwards with tons of people, tons of food and tons of fun.

291/365

2007-03-10T18:48:00.000Z

a beautiful day in regents park, followed by drinks with loz and her boyf, talking of morality and sexuality and dirnking lots of ginger beer and rum.

290/365

2007-03-09T18:47:00.000Z

Crying down the phone to pod after having an AWFUL day - including breaking some art at a private view (gulp) and for once him saying:
"I'm only half an hour away, go home, buy some wine and ill be there to give you a hug and make it all better soon."

289/365

2007-03-08T18:45:00.000Z

kicking things always being the answer.

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2007-03-07T10:57:00.000Z

Banoffee pie, sherry trifle, apple crumble, turkish things, lemon torte, brownies, strawberry cheesecake, icecream, sweets, biscuits, rum, ginger beer and wine. Pudding party at Loz's. beautiful.

287/365

2007-03-06T10:56:00.000Z

Fighting the big strong black belt. Standing my own. Not exactly wooping her ass but standing my own. fun times.

286/365

2007-03-05T12:27:00.000Z

"There are things that current theories can't explain. The magic, the supernatural. Whilst still understudied this is becoming of increasing interested to embodiment theorists especially." (lecturer)

Well of course...duh.

A world explained through science, through reason, where emotions are purely about drives and expereince is disembodied “becomes an impoverished world, a world of minds without bodies, of bodies without minds, bodies without hearts, expectations, interests, a world of enthusiastic automata observing strange and mute creatures; in other words, a poorly articulated (and poorly articulating) world.” (Despret, 2004:131)

285/365

2007-03-04T12:25:00.000Z

Feeling satisfied at the end of a weekend in the country.

Listening to God.

Chilling with friends.

Listening to issues.

Just being.

284/365

2007-03-03T17:47:00.000Z

Taking this during worship at New leaders...causing the three of us to descend into those 'must hold them in, whole body shaking' type giggles just as everyone stopped singing and ally g started praying very movingly.

Late night mandolin, guitar folk song playing and welsh dancing with ally g, lois and few arts people. spontaneity of the greatest kind.

283/365

2007-03-02T16:20:00.000Z

"I prefer the tears of right sacrifice
To the tears I've wept when sin has enticed
I will chose your way."

282/365

2007-03-01T23:12:00.001Z

Getting a first for an essay that counts alot. :)

281/365

2007-02-28T23:09:00.000Z

Pod: "I asked the shopkeeper for the best paracetemol for you. He said it was this one, so thats why I bought it. Becuase it's the best one for you."

280/365

2007-02-27T23:05:00.000Z

Bumping into Kat and going for wine and burger. Talking straight.

Then onto big debate. Friends coming along who aren't christians/struggling.
Laughing out loud at the hilarity of the debate. Atheist getting his arse wooped by the christian (William Lane Craig). Being convinced God DOES exist.

279/365

2007-02-26T15:27:00.000Z

"The greatest danger for most of us is not that our aim is too high and we miss it, but too low and we reach it." (Michelangelo)

278/365

2007-02-25T15:25:00.000Z

Church at 3.30 meaning a relaxing morning, big burger for lunch and exploring the nooks and crannies of Beeston with pod. bo.

277/365

2007-02-24T15:23:00.000Z

going to every pet shop we saw. getting guinea pig obbsessed.

276/365

2007-02-23T15:21:00.000Z

Standing on the train about to get off at Pod's and hearing: "I think the president of the CU....At forum..." Words I hear so many times they washed over me...30 seconds later, i realised that wasn't normal...

...nice to make some new friends with some loughborough students on their way to NLT!

275/365

2007-02-22T15:20:00.000Z

Sweating.

274/365

2007-02-21T16:48:00.000Z

9 hours in the library. no distractions.
Watching a dance performance at the theatre that was just as much about photography as dance. very cool.

273/365

2007-02-20T16:46:00.000Z

Praying for more opportunities and bravery to speak the gospel before i leave goldsmiths.
God answering that prayer. oh surprise surprise.

272/365

2007-02-19T13:38:00.000Z

Listening to hurting people. Avoiding the sadness that can creep into the soul when others struggle but rather being grateful for the grace of God and convinced more than ever that his way is best

271/365

2007-02-18T13:34:00.000Z

Steffy B and I "doing music" at church. The fact that we didnt have the music, didnt practise just allowed more room for the spirit... erhem...

Being random all afternoon with steffy b, milly and kat.

"It's a split, balancing poo..."

"And our band shall be called...sad."

270/365

2007-02-17T19:08:00.000Z

Being asked to demonstrate a kick at Taekwondo that I was doing the best out of the class. Proud? Moi? *giggles*

269/365

2007-02-16T19:06:00.000Z

After being in the library from 10am til 7pm (hardcore) coming home to 3 episodes of 24, curteosy of express delivery of Bish to Debbie to me. fabulous

268/365

2007-02-15T19:03:00.000Z

My dissertation tutor: "Look at article 'x' in book 'x' that we wrote as a department about 30 years ago.

Me: "Flip, you've been at Goldmsiths 30 years?!"

Tutor: "Well over 30 years actually."

Now THATS what an old school career looks like!

yeah, that was cool

yeah, that was cool.

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